03 July, 2012

What you all consider the best, I consider mediocre.

me·di·o·cre [mee-dee-oh-ker]
1.of only ordinary or moderate quality; neither good nor bad; barely adequate: The car gets only mediocre mileage, but it's fun to drive.
Synonyms: undistinguished, commonplace, pedestrian, everyday; run-of-the-mill. Antonyms: extraordinary, superior, uncommon, incomparable.

If you ever wonder sometimes about the way I do things, why I am so passionate about things, why I am either hot or cold, why I either really like you or really don't, this is why.
I do not have a mediocre bone in my body. It's 100% or 0% with me. Yes, it's hard, it's stressful, and it wears me out. Some days I wish I could be someone who gives less than 100% all the time to everything, but I'm not. If you are still my friend and you have put up with me this long, I love you for it. If you are my family and you have tolerated me this way all my life because you love me, thank you.
And if you are my friend or family, and I call you when I am down and need you, now you know why. It's because I have given every last bit I had to someone or something else and I need you to pick me back up. Love you all :)
And yes, I did write this myself. I only copied the definition from Dictionary.com and am more than happy to give them the credit they deserve.